I cannot stand my life right now. I've had a rough few months and I can't see it getting any better, I feel very low. My life is one big mess; my mum died when I was 11, I'm 17 years old. I used to live with my dad, but then he re-married and pushed me aside - just like everyone does. I can't take it any more, I just want to die. I can't cope with it all, I cut myself in order to feel alive but that isn't working anymore, I feel dead... Cutting has become a way of life to me. I've found it really hard to cope. I find it difficult to talk to anyone about how I'm feeling, I've got a close friend that I talk to and vent my feeling too - he knows it all. But, at present I'm even finding it hard to talk to him. I promised him I wouldnt self harm again, but it is just so hard to keep it, am I wrong to break that promise? I've come close to cutting again but I've stopped myself. However I feel at an all time low, where I want to end my life. I've come close to it but I have never been able to go through with it. But now I dont think i'll be able too. what can I do?