ask anyone on this forum about me i'm a fuck up, a fool, a goddamn pedantric asshole trying to cover up my hurt and loss. i wake up everymorning and look at my scars and cry, because i'm so weak, so retarded, and lost. people are hurt on my account, and i give those i 'love' morose hurt and indifference. My family, my friends all HATE me, but I can't blame them, nor can I accuse them of anything less. killing myself becomes more and more a ideal choice, because i can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. I've lost myself, and I can't go back.