It's the holidays, usually it's spent with family and friends but for me it will be spent alone and will fade in and out like every other day has the past 5 or 6 years. I have plenty of Uncles and Aunts, too many cousins to count yet I barely know any of them and the ones I do know we do not resemble anything like a family. We don't speak, we don't spend time together, when thinking of Uncles, Aunts or Cousins I feel no love. When I die they won't be at my funeral, the only ones there if I'm lucky will be maybe a parent, siblings and a few hobos who had nothing else to do so they stopped by to bum. When I needed them the most they were no where to be found, my own brother and sisters weren't there to help me. I was alone. Day after day my dislike grows for not only my family but for every person I have the misfortune of knowing or being around, I try not to but I have little hope for people in general as society becomes more selfish, ignorant and careless. Not once has a family member or friend asked me whats wrong, my only outlet is facebook and when I update my status most of the time I make it overwhelmingly apparent that I'm depressed and just want someone to ask if I want to talk or say that they care. No family member has asked why I spend all my time hidden in my room, why I don't want to make friends, instead I'm greeted with degrading and belittling comments by my halfwit mother who isn't fit to raise, look after or comfort a fucking flower let alone another human being. So, how are you guys and gals enjoying your holidays this season?