i'm so sick of my life and i just can't stand it. i'm pretty much useless and i really have no importance. everyone hates me and i can't stand to be around people all that much so i guess i can't blame anyone for hating me...i wish that i could talk to someone anytime that i want to because i don't like this feeling...i don't like feeling like i'm a total failure at life... i wish that i dunno just be able to pick up the phone and talk to someone and i don't mean like a therapist or anything like that. i need to talk to someone like myself. i hate being too formal and talking to a professional would really make me feel uncomfortable. i seriously have thought about killing myself time and time again and then i found out that there is a forum for this and i thought to myself maybe i can get some help here...so if anyone is willing to help me out, that would be great but if not then at least i tried...