I hate who I am. Nobody is my friend and I don't even know what to say to people. I constantly look sad and I'm always crying half the time anyways. Did you know I used to cheated on someone? Well I did. I'm a horrible person. My parents don't even look at me and I'm the black sheep of the family. Suicide thoughts constantly race through my mind. I doubt nobody will even acknowledge this thread. My friend committed suicide, I got precancer on my cervix stage 3 and kidney stones and I'm isolating myself from everyone from talking to me. I doubt anyone even cares. I just walk around and pretend I'm happy, in reality I'm really sad. I feel so much pain and suffering. I doubt I'll ever love anyone ever again. Heh, I mean who would loved anyone like me anyways? I was sexually molested as a child and raped. I'm seriously tired of this pain....... and I'm tired of everything else for that matter too.