Right this minute my flat mates have seen a video of me stealing their food. I can't face up to them as I know they hate me now. The truth is I suffer from depression and have just started taking medication after suffering a bad turn. I don't know if I could handle the disappointment of my flat mates. I stole their food to make myself sick. It was the one thing I felt I could control since I couldn't control my mood. I don't know what to do now, I've locked myself in my bedroom and I just want to harm myself (or worse).