I just can't do this. I keep putting on weight. Every time I see a dietitian they say I'm eating really well but because I wasn't underweight in the first place I'm now overweight. So I've stopped eating again. I can't handle life. I can't handle anything anymore. It's all too much. I just keep on getting worse and worse. I'm hurting my friends and I waste peoples' time. I don't deserve to exist.