I hate feeling like I need someone else to make me feel complete. I was in a relationship for five years with a man and a few months after we broke up, we agreed to be friends with benefits. I just wanted the craving for sex to go away. I told him there was no chance of us getting back together. He's been coming over two or three times a months the past few months. I know that he is not right for me. I know I will just get hurt if I date him again. But having him over has made me wish I had someone who cared. I know he is only coming over for sex- he is not coming over to talk to me or make me feel better. I promised myself when I broke up with him the last time, I'd learn to stand on my own two feet- I wouldn't date anyone and I'd do everything for myself by myself. I was doing fine for a little while- I wouldn't even think about asking for help from someone else, I'd just plan to do everything by myself and not think twice. But now it seems like every time I have to take a long trip on the bus or I have to carry a lot of things, I wish that someone would do it for me. I don't want to be dependent on someone else- I know that's not a healthy way to have a relationship. But now it seems like every time I'm alone to think, I'm daydreaming about having a boyfriend who will do everything for me. I hate it. I need to learn to be okay by myself before I can be in another serious relationship. But now it seems like I constantly want to cry because I don't have a boyfriend that loves me.