I want to tell my parents that their presence opresses me, that I'd much rather be alone and that I only have some friends now so that having to be cooped up in school all day doesn't drive me crazy. But I NEVER talk about my feelings to my parents, because the chance is ZERO that they will feel the same way so it's not like they can understand or emphathize. Sure they raised me but I don't feel like I owe them any peek into my mind. I'm so confused, being in public can make me feel better sometimes but otherwise I just get frustrated. My people skills are getting better (don't ask me how, I don't know what it is) but I still feel frustrated and confused about people and sometimes I just want my parents to get the fuck out of the house so I can be myself with no one watching. I don't get lonely at all! Tommorrow they're going on vacation and can't get someone to stay with me for the first night. I've never had a building all to myself for more than a few hours. I want to try it. I love being alone. I turn off all the lights and stand around for half an hour feeling my sight increase. Than I play my violin or something. I know I have no self control, that it will be a huge effort to finish any homework if they leave me alone, but I find that only bothers me when I'm NOT alone. I am NOT like other people, so why the fuck do they want me to be. I spent 16 years feeling alone and I've lost emotional attachments to almost everyone. MAY I ACTUALLY BE ALONE NOW?!