I come from a family that has a history in the military, I have heard that some people in my families history have some kind of history in the special forces.. So, since I left school, I have always had this "well, there is the military son.." rhetoric in my family, because they aren't forcing me to join, or pressuring me to join, but if they could make me go a certain way, the would want me to serve at least the minimal service time in the military, particularly the royal marines, which is where about 90% of my military family members have served. The thing is, is I have always felt inadequate because I didn't join the marines when I left school, because I feel like half a man, because I'm in a military family, and I'm just a weakling who isn't up to it, the USMC would refer to me as a "Jody": http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Jody Even though Jody is an upper class toff, which I'm not, the rest describes me quite well. And that just makes me feel worse. I should have joined the royal marines when I was 17, I'm not clever or creative, so I cant really do what it is that I want to do with my life any way, so I should have joined. I am going to enlist on Monday.