I am 26, gay, and very depressed. Its strange because this depression really just got going a couple months ago and now most days I think of suicide atleast one. I dont want to kill myself. Well, I havent wanted to until today. Today was the first time when I actually had a real desire to commit suicide... and those thoughts just wont go away. I never finished college and I recently lost my job(both due to my anxiety and depression) which isnt helping things. I also havent been in a relationship... ever... and I am starting to really hate that. I am a little overweight and any time I try to talk to someone they just give me the "not my type" line because I am not a stereotypical gay guy (thin). I just am starting to feel like there is nothing left to live for. I am sick of sitting home in bed crying my eyes out. I just dont know what to do any more.