of year... It always comes around and reminds me of how alone I am, I have a few friends, and yes i spend a few evenings with them... but working in a shop, christmas started in october and I just tend to see people around me, happy, settled, in couples. I struggle like a lot of people this time of year, sometimes I just want a hug. I used to chat a lot online and I think that kept me sane, I don't even have that anymore. I'm tired, I'm lonely and I'm more depressed at least around xmas people see exsessive drinking as 'normal'