well, i havent posted something on here in a long time.im upset because i just cant get that fucking image out of my mindi really hate how she is such a ***** now. you know, she has had over sexual relations with over 4 people in the past 6 months we have been separated? that sounds whorish to me. how many have i had? just one. one and that was with her when we still dated!!! why does it hurt me so much to concieve the image of her begging who shes with to "give it" to her? she used to say that to me. not ever fucking guy in the world. i hate life yo.... i want to cut, and i havent cut in a long time.its just tempting... so very tempting cause i just want to forget her and i cant. how fucking gay is that? same image... same thing i always see in my mind. her getting fucked by some random guy and her doing all the special things she did with me.... its so stupid... just like life.