I feel like such a failure My fiance and I got into a huge fight tonight. I don't appreciate him enough and it's the truth. I feel like he does not care, though. I got into a fight with him about engagement photos. I just wanted nice photos. He didn't want to do it, but he did it - albiet kicking and screaming. I wanted him to do so with a smile. I shouldn't have asked that of him. I yelled at him...called him horrible names. I shouldn't have. I am an awful person. He deserves better. I am always wrong. I am always making the wrong decisions. I don't listen. He's always right. I hate my face. I hate my hair. It never does what I want it to do. I have gained weight. I wish I could just stop eating. I'm never good enough. He would be better without me. I am sick. I hate pills. I wish anti depressants came in shot form. What ever. I wish I could just kill myself but it would influence too many people. I'll suffer for them.