From here my life can go into to different directions 1. I hurt my self 2. I hurt somebody else Currently every single thing i do in this life makes more angrier and frustrated. A few examples : if i go outside my anxiety disorders make me feel extreme discomfort. If i try to talk to people my lack of self confidence + my anxiety disorders lead to anger and frustrations. If i stay alone the loneliness makes me sad and angry. I cant sleep well because of my anxiety disorder. If i try to read my limited concentrations makes it extremely unpleasant which makes school work a pain in the ass. Try reading a fucking law book with the concentration span of 30 minutes. This has been my life for many years and will continue to be it, with no release valve in sight. So i think its a pretty fair assumption that at some point i cant take it anymore and it will go in one of the two directions. I personally think option 2 is more likely, i just hope the person who gets it really deserves it.