I have a 14 year old son, who doesn't live with me (he lives in Germany with his father, I live in Canada). My life is a living hell, and there are no reasons to believe that things will ever improve. I'm sick and tired of it, and I don't want to suffer anymore. My question is: would it be better for my son if I had an "accident", rather than outright killing myself -- you know, "accidentally" stepping in front of a truck, as opposed to hanging myself. I just am so tired of hurting. No, I don't want to hurt my son, but how much misery is a person supposed to take?