Because I often get very bad sleep paralysis attacks. (Before you say ridiculous sh*t, I'M AN ATHEIST.) Only sometimes when I'm about to go to sleep I feel like I'm sleeping on the wrong side, and I know I might have a sleep paralysis attack. But most of the time I'm so sleep I'm just like "I can't stay awake any longer... Must sleep....... " Then I suddenly woke up completely paralyzed. I can feel my body muscles all paralyzed! I become very self away that this isn't a dream. The clock is still ticking, I can hear it, and the TV is still on the show I left it on Netflix a few minutes or hours ago. I panic and try to move any body part I possibly can to trigger a big twitch or jolt to wake up my muscles to then wake me up entirely. My ex-girlfriend has even experienced me in that state. She said she just saw me staring straight ahead with my eyes open and wiggling my toes and twitching and shaking a little before I eventually wake up. I'm not as much scared of being paralyzed, but the fact that I'm paralyzed makes me think "Something is wrong with me! Am I ever going to move again? Is this a state of a coma? Will I have a heart attack from this?" which THEN causes me to panic a lot, and focus on moving my muscles to wake myself up. So that's why I'm very scared of falling asleep. The fear of being paralyzed and being stuck forever like that. I've had it even since I was younger around age 7-9. I would remember waking up for school and suddenly I can't move at all. Does ANYONE else have this as bad as I do?