I've always had a hard time with relationships. I've always been the shy one that was teased. Think someone loved me only to find out that they were using me, or were laughing at my stupidity of thinking I'd be loved. They'd be with me until I either wasn't useful anymore or became broke and was no longer able to support them and me. I've learned to ignore them and move on. I'm had people I loved- though I still do have a hard time of saying it. But when I do I give my whole heart and soul to them. It's been stomped on (apparently since I'm single) many times. But still I move on and keep going. I have someone I love, but I'm so uncertain if she loves me. And this is the part I HATE! When I can't tell for sure. I want to believe she does. But at the same time I don't want to be a fool if it turns out to be wrong. I know she wouldn't leave, we've had worse stuff happen and we still are around. I just wish I could be that type of person that can just come out and say it, and be like 'ah hey if not it's perfectly fine!' God I swear I really just suck at all relationships! I'm just so awkwardness around others; and I've decided that that is just me- the geeky, nerdy girl that can't seem to keep a conversation going if her life depended on it.