I am so tired of all that has been going on in my life. I am not completely suicidal but am getting more and more depressed. What do I do if the person I am with I am just not happy with anymore? I hate my life. My husband has crossed a line with physically hurting me. I can't be here anymore. My pastor says NO DIVORCE! That's it if I get a divorce then I will be shunned from my church which is my only refuge. I can't be with someone abusive it goes against everything in my heart. So what choice do I have. I love my church. I don't want to be shunned. Ok maybe I should just off myself then this decision won't have to be made.