I'm worried. I looked up Schizophrenia and the warning signs all apply to me. Please please please please take time to read this, I'm feeling lost. I giggle for no reason, I act like a kid, I got thrown out of a bar the other day for turning on the pumps for no reason! I suck my thumb and can't stop doing it I'm 21 years old. I'm paranoid everybody hates me even my closest friends, even ones I haven't seen in months due to university...I just think they will randomly decide to hate me. I'm VERY paranoid that my Mum eavesdrops with her ear to the wall so won't phone anybody when she's nearby... I think people can guess my thoughts easily (especially my Mum) so I either think of something else, stuff that's happened to me but hasn't so she doesn't know what I'm doing etc When I'm on the bus I keep switching my ipod off because I have this bizarre fear of someone hearing what I'm listening to. Concentrating is hard for me if I find something boring, I can finnish a book in a day but can't read a letter from my bank. I excessively self-medicate with drugs and alcohol. I self harm and am a diagnosed bulimic. I mentally torture myself trying to figure out the meaning of life, I'm paranoid I'm going to hell and I was brought up in an excessively catholic household and got scared to death by hell's horror stories from my Mum and uncle. I have a highly disfunctional family whatever that means...my religious uncle slept with his brother's fiance so I have this weird feeling that it's OK to lead a double life like he did, religious one minute, traitor the next etc. I think about sex too much. I talk to myself at times mostly saying "shut up shut up" or "fuck off fuck off" to the criticising thoughts I get in my head. I laugh hysterically for no reason. I hear voices particularly when I'm about to go to sleep. I can't sit still and keep breaking things around me. I avoid people I love at times because I'm afraid they will stop liking me. If I read a boring letter from the bank or college or something I CANNOT bring myself to read it!!!! I try over and over but nothing goes in! I am only capable of reading things I'm interested in. I get panic attacks for no reason it's worse when I'm drunk or high, I convinced myself someone in a bar was going to beat me up or rape me. I imagined somebody was there to talk to me when my family were arguing and I did most of the listening. I have an imaginary friend at my age...it's not good. I get depressed if my body hair isn't completely gone. I'm fixated on death and horror. I forget things eaisly. I laugh at the most inappropriate times imaginable I'm laughing as I'm writing this!!! I make strange noises for no reason. I don't know whether I'm just healthily odd or Schizophrenic. Does anybody know somebody with Schizophrenia, am I like them? I need help.