I feel an urge to self harm with medication. I am not on any, but feel I need a break for awhile. If I woke up in hospital in a coma I wouldn't care. I am due to see the psych on Monday. When I see the psych or counsellor I feel really happy whilst seeing them. They tell me that I am very bubbly and hard to pick. I think I must be the happiest suicidal person they have ever seen.