I just pray to die, i have called the hotline...and it was no help. There is nothing to take this pain from me, i have got the foreclosure letter,and there is nothing left to eat. So because of this my daughters mom,i can't say wife or ex because we aren't divorced yet but she's also not with me, she has cut me off from seeing my daughter. When she left she took my gun/knife collection with her so i can't do it the quick easy way..so i have to take my chances with overdose again. I will never feel love again,there is nothing i could offer to someone anyway..so i hope the loving arms of death will take me and hold me close. my daughters mom wants me to die, she has made it very clear to me. my stepson won't even speak to me. I have thought this through very clearly and have come to the conclusion that there is no way out of this..no home,no food,no daughter,no stepson no family,there is only one option.