I am scared.......petrified. I have my disability hearing in the morning and I am almost postitive I won't get it. If that happens I will be on the streets. And last night I kept trying to convince myself that there was no God and it was okay to kill myself. I want to so bad.....:cry2: I wish for death. I can barely keep myself alive and my apartment half way decent. And my old case manager said that I had about a 40% chance of getting it, because she said the government is cutting back...and the judge will argue that if I am not working how do I know I can't...well shit I'd only be getting 500 if I could work why live in 180.00 amonth? why wouldn't I be working right now when I want to.......I am the type that wants to be independant and it kills me that I can't right nhow. I WANT TO DIE SO MUCH MAYBE I WILL CONVINCE MYSELF.