Nothing. not friends, family, love or even suicidal thoughts. none of it matters. the only thing that matters is- wait, there is nothing that i can put here. i just float along the top of consciousness. i don't really think about anything. in fact, i spend very little of my time conscious. i just ignore everyone and everything. i read books a lot. actually, thats about it. i just read books and sleep. the only other thing i occasionally do is eat, but i have to force myself to do that. there is no point in killing myself, because it would solve nothing. the worst thing someone can do to themselves is fade away.