I have everything I could ever want but......

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by killorbee, Apr 5, 2008.

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  1. killorbee

    killorbee Active Member

    I still am depressed and tired. I have a beautifukl wife and great children, a house and car and food on the table. Why am I not happy,, I get sick alot,, i feel like im suffocating. I just cant get through the days. I feel no one is really caring at all for me accept my kids. I feel unloved and just want to sleep all day. Im on all kinds of medicine cause my health is bad. zI just want a gun. I dont want to lose what I got, but then again Im not sure if this is what I really wanted. I know its to late cause I have a family now. I love them much,,, but i dont love myself,, and most the people around here are just rude and stupid and Its hard to find good friends. Im just lonely I guess. my family Is not feeling all of my loneliness. I dont want to face tommorrow. I must try everyday though it is so hard. Im confusing myself and dont understand.:sad:
  2. Summer.Rain

    Summer.Rain Well-Known Member

    Hi there, im sorry to hear about what you are going threw right now, i really recommend you to get in conntact with a doctor that you well know, telling him about what you feel and ask for advice. Until you do so, be strong by knowing there is a way to make you feel better! You have done so much.. dont loose it! :wink:
  3. killorbee

    killorbee Active Member

    I am taking cymbalta and clonazepam currently,, i also have hypothyroidism and have had some type of irregular heartbeat for a few years now mostly when i exercise or try to lift weights. It sucks I pretty much stick to walking and situps for exercise now. Ive lost some weight cause i changed my diet but I still feel bad, Nothing so far has changed my sadness, I have mood swings sometimes severe.
  4. sudut

    sudut Well-Known Member

    sorry to hear about that. i don't know what to say but lots of people would wish they were in your shoes.
    since i can't say i relate to how you are feeling, please atleast live for the sake of you children. talk to folks here too.
  5. peacegirl

    peacegirl Well-Known Member

    Hi Killorbee, I am sorry that you are struggling, but this is your mind/body telling you that things are not right. This is a good sign, because if you didn't have something to let you know that there is a problem (sort of like a fever when your body is fighting something), you would have no way of correcting it. If you look at this warning as a new perspective, not something that should be avoided, you will begin to figure out what it is that you do need whether it's more time to yourself, or more appreciation from your family. Be happy that you are recognizing that you need more in your life, for this is the start of a new beginning; where you take inventory of where you have come from and where you are going, and insodoing throwing out what has no value, and holding on more dearly to what means the most.
  6. almosteasy

    almosteasy Well-Known Member

    From a medical viewpoint you’re someone biologically prone to depression/suicidal thoughts. Nothing has to be wrong for you to be depressed. I think that is what you are going through. Medication for depression has a very good chance of working for you. I would recommend that you talk to a physician. Good luck and I hope things work out for you. If you want anymore information on the subject feel free to PM me anytime.
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