I have failed as a provider for my family. And it wasnt anything intentional I did, just life.... So now my family is starving, and my wife is ready to leave me. I can't put food on the table. Please say, instead of killing yourself, why dont you wait a day or awhile and see what happens. Well, I have. If you look back to when I joined this forum, you will see I have waited a long time. The wait is over. I can't live with the failures anymore.