They just keep boxing me in and making the light at the end of the tunnel smaller. It is becoming clear to me that it is impossible to go on, impossible to change, and impossible to continue to live my life and hope that things get better. I have no options. This is it. So, this Friday is when I'll do it. I'm not quite sure yet how I will do it, but I think I'll hang myself. I also have a bottle of sleeping pills and I'll do research within the next few days on which kinds will kill me and such. I will go out by the shore and listen to music for awhile, walk around and reflect on my life. Then, I'll just do it. For the next few days I'll just be tying up loose ends and getting prepared. To everyone who has ever cared or offered assistance to me on this forum: Thank you.