I have had it... is this how others on here treat others that are suicidal???

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by White Dove, Aug 7, 2007.

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  1. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    Is it???

    Is this really how others see things?

    Do you really honestly think i will not do it??

    Well i will and im gonna do it.....

    I came here to get support cause i needed that support.. I came here to find a reason to live, a reason to go on but ....... I dont have that....

    How many more times do others want to send me a pm like this????

    I thought this was a pro life site???

    Well im going camping and im doing it.. BYE....

    Want to know the reason why???

    this is why....Dear White Dove,

    You have received a new private message at Suicide Forum - A support forum for people in crisis from <Mod Edit: Name removed>, entitled "-".

    To read the original version, respond to, or delete this message, you must log in here:

    This is the message that was sent:
    <Mod Edit: Abacus21 - PM removed - do not post Private Messages on the forum, as they are, by nature, meant to remain private>

    yep , right i am pathic , you are sick of me so im gone...

    I know without a doubt i am unloved , you dont have to tell me that, and no im not a stupid 5 year old. i am a 35 year old that has feelings , that hurts... so you got your wish... you all got your wish.. im gone and im dead...

    BTW - expressive child will let you know when he sees my name in the obit.. he has the links..

    im sorry i hurt everyone.. that was not my intention..

    im sorry you all think of me that way...

    im sorry i seem like this...

    i am nothing and i know im nothing..


    and to member <Mod Edit: Do not single out members>....

    THANK you for helping me to see just how pathic my life is.. thank you for letting me know i am worth nothing.. thank you for putting the last final dagger to my heart.. many thanks for helping me end it...
    Last edited by a moderator: Aug 9, 2007
  2. Reki

    Reki Well-Known Member

    Dove don't let it get to you. Honestly, who cares about the crap he said? So that's his opinion, let him sit with it. One negative nancy doesn't represent the entire community. I know a ton of people have said positive things to you and given encouragement as best they could, are you really going to take what some apathetic moron said over what they did?
  3. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    but its the truth ,

    the truth of my stupid pathic life..

    you know i even asked the minister where i usually attend church at for help with getting a hospital bed.... and you know ive not heard anything from him..

    no one gives a shit.. no one cares about my stupid pathic life...

    its not that i have attempted it..

    i havent been able to be alone to do the job, but my camping is paid up and im outta here tonight...

    And if anyone from my home town reads this then screw you , you havent cared for me at all.,. you dont give a damn

    And the daltons dont either... See they made the same mistake thinking i would not do anything , but i did , and i will this time.. i am gone..

    i got nothing to lose , and i mean nothing..

    pray all you want , say all you want to.. i am gone... i have had it.. tonight was not a good night and then i log on to get the above message,

    oh halllhawa , thank you very much , you pushed all the right buttons... thank you very much...
  4. ShalenaM

    ShalenaM Well-Known Member

    Dear whitedove, You are not pathetic, I am, I'm hurting like you..please don't go..I will do anything or say anything I can to keep you from going..please..I love you..don't go..I understand your pain..I would be willling to share with you..please..we can cry together..but I don't want to see anyone going to kill themselves..I used to be that way, and though I"m depressed to the sever extreme, if that makes any sense i'm not thinking about suicide..please don't go..your gonna make me cry..
  5. Reki

    Reki Well-Known Member

    I don't know what to tell you, Dove. To be totally honest I feel a little hurt and a little insulted that my opinion and the opinions of so many others on this forum means so little to you. You keep saying no one cares and I understand that we don't talk on a one-on-one basis but are my best wishes for you that insignificant?
  6. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    im sorry Reki , and to others..

    i mean no harm..

    see i cant ever do anything right..

    i just cant..

    i cant even help others here and now i have hurt others again..

    im sorry..

    your opinions do have meaning to me..

    its just that i am so hurt and so dont know what to do..

    im dying anyhow of cancer...

    im sorry.. i wont hurt anyone anymore...
  7. ShalenaM

    ShalenaM Well-Known Member

    You didn't hurt me..unrequited love did, I really care and don't want oyu to commit suicide..but I also want to commit suicide strongly..and i think i will...im tired of this non-sense..he doesn't love me and never will,,i told him i was harrassed and he doesn't care..im confused and seeing illusions right now..i don't know who i am or what im thinking..I don't truly know what of this world. what wonders lie in the world, I pronounced to be a christian , but really am i?..I'm starting to feel other ways..either way it goes, im going to hell..so im going to commit suicide one day..hopefully soon..

    You didn't hurt me white dove..you really didn't , it would just hurt me if you died, but who ami? I'm a nobody..

    I love you-just to tell you before either of us go..:sad:
  8. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    Dear WD,It's alway's going to happen sadly that you may get someone like you did writing to you the way they did sadly.The thing that you have to try and do is not let these people get to you,I knw it's not easy shaking certain comment's off you if it was easy you'd be doing it.

    Just please try to take thing's easy and you can say whatever you like,remember that was one comment out of how many have been quite offensive to you.Try to remember many people have shown how much they care about you here also people you or I who we've never met before have shown far more compassion than people we know.

    Remember you're speaking out of frsutration and hurt the only differnece is that you're venting out loud instead of cbottling it up which is good.Please try to do whatever you need to that's going to keep you from doing anything drastically severe.

    I know you have this terrible,horrible Cancer and I don't know what it feel's like no one does unless we have but we do know that you're suffering both mentally and physically which is upsetting enough.try to keep at it girl PLEASE your friend alway's Ace(Steve):smile:
  9. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    Thats okay ace hun,

    im happy, okay??

    everythings okay.... :hug:

    love you :hug:

    please know that i love you okay???

    You take care of yourself sweetie and dont let anyone or anything get you down sweetie, and i will be watching over you... :hug:
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  10. Random

    Random Well-Known Member

    Whoever sent that PM is a pretty sick individual. I'm sorry. I know most people here are hurting but that was just wrong.
  11. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    Hey White Dove :hug:

    Sorry this has happened, but I've removed the member's name and the PM from your first post, as PMs are meant to remain private - PM stands for Private Message, and have removed the member's name, as it's not fair to single out members, regardless of what they've done..

    Also, no-one except you will be able to view your PMs at the link you gave, as it's only accessible when you're logged into your own account.
  12. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    It is unfortunate that there is no way to control all ppl's insensitivities, especially in PMs...if we could, we would do so...that being said, why hurt yourself over someone's opinion you do not respect? I think the person who sent the PM may have more to regret than you...not familiar with what happened, but do know that each time we judge something, we must consider the source...wishing you safety and more comforting messages, big hugs
  13. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    Abacus21 , please forgive me??? :hug:

    i meant no harm...

    i was hurting and angry and lashed out..

    i promise it will not happen again..

    please forgive me????

  14. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    love you :hug:
  15. Blackness

    Blackness Guest

    woo I see you're not dead :)
  16. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    no , not yet , but my plans are for this sunday..

    my uncle austin passed away...

    i posted about him in loved and lost..

    if you would like to see a photo of him and me that was taken , a while back.. i think it was april but after thinking about it a while i think it was taken last year in july.. my memory is not as good as it used to be.. just send a pm...
  17. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    Dear little dove,I have to back up what sadeyes has said please don't let people who are uncompassionate and insensitive get to you because it will only hurt you more and make you feel worse.I know this is'nt easy to do,but remember there are so many people here who care about you.I'm really sorry I wish I could do more to ease your pain.
  18. Blackness

    Blackness Guest

    white dove, I keep reading about when you plan to end your life, and when the days come you're still here. You keep putting it off, which is great, it's not your time yet, not ready yet, stay :)
  19. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    oh ace hun , you do , you all help me..

    its just that i am battling two pains and something has to give , somehow...

    and i really wish those on here that are christians would please stop asking GOD to interfer with my life and Stop asking him to stop my plans on ending it..

    you know what? i was heading out the door to go to camping and the phone rings so i let the answering machine get it and it is barbara and she says susie im calling to let you know about austin , so i drop everything and pick up the phone and find out that hes not doing well , so i come back inside , turn everything off , tv , phone , everything and pray.. i prayed a lot and really hard but God still took him..

    I honestly believe that others online here are praying to God to stop me from taking my life and i have got to say to those that are praying for me..

    please stop?? please stop the prayers for me?

    i have had enough pain..

    Cant you just let me go?

    please just let me go this sunday..?

    just let my plans stay and be carried out , please???
  20. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    but i cant do it..

    something always stops me..

    look my uncle just passed away and stopped me from doing it early again..

    someone is praying for me not to do it and God is interfering and making that prayer to God come true..

    so whoever is doing it, please stop???

    just let me go please??
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