and I can't stop thinking aboutme being the third. I have been wanting to do this for so long and lately things have been terrible. I didn't want to quit like that and I don't want to do something so selfish. My sister would be ruined, and my friends would be a mess. That all used to be enough but lately it hasn't been. I don't I'd prefer not to do it, but sometmes it seems like its the only way.