She called me soulmate.. She called me love.. Now I have lost her and I don't even know why.. She is not talking to me not answering the phone.. And I know that in few days she is going to tell me it is over .. She is going to sentence me to death. Because there's no life without her. As much as I am looking forward to hearing her voice, I am scared of what she is going to say, this time she is not coming back and again I will never understand why.. Why do they all leave why can't anybody care enough to stay.. My life is just a chain of loss and abandonment. And I can't take anymore I am tired of living tired of loosing tired of hurting and what is the point of waking up going to work pretending to be human pretending to be like the rest go them and going back to emptiness loneliness and despair. I have nothing to look forward to nothing to live for nothing to hope for. She was all I cared for and now she is gone. Nothing matters anymore..