Okay, so, this is the first time i have ever tried looking for help, but I need it more than anything right now. I want to make this story short, so not very many details will be included. I am bisexual, and a little over a year ago, I fell in love with a girl. She said that she was heterosexual, but that i turned it all around. We kissed and stuff, and acted like a couple, but now she says that she just can't be in a relationship with a girl. I feel hopeless. She's the only thing in the world that matters to me. My family have never been there for me, and I have absolutely no friends. She is the one keeping me alive, but today I lost that last bit of hope, when she told me that she were in love with me, but she's not anymore. Another thing is, that we were "hanging out" two days ago, and she kissed me. I don't know what to think anymore, and I honestly just wanna end everything. I don't know if i can deal with this anymore. My life is a true nightmare. - I don't know if this is important, but just a few facts. I am a self harmer, and I'm a girl. - Last question; What is the panic button? Thank you.