Ive been here and on other sites for awhile. usually when Im down, Ill do the numb routine where I just forget it and move on. That doesnt work now though. Im tired of reaching out and trying. Im tired of waiting. Im just in agony now. If I try I hurt, if I dont try I hurt. I wish I knew someone... to do something. everyone rejects me. I tried looking for people online that live near me. all but one of my messages were 'read deleted'. the one that was read and replied, was just a sentence. I messaged back asking if the person was interested in just talking. they said no. sorry.