I have no chance!!! :(

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Summer.Rain, Sep 7, 2008.

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  1. Summer.Rain

    Summer.Rain Well-Known Member

    Im trying, im posting on the local forums, its like the main Odessa forums.
    asking question about aducation, about what to do where and how.
    Im asking the elder students about how its like in Ukraine to be in a
    collage or university. But all thay do is loughing at me.
    The admin gave me 2 warning becouse he things im trolling..
    He think im trolling becouse i have spelling issues (My russian is not very good)
    I told him that im like turist but he think im lieng and warning me that
    he will ban me if ill keep trolling\spamming.
    The students looking at me like im some sort of homeless\worthless
    How can i take a role in such system?
    Why should i do it at all?

    I dont know.. im trying but i keep knocking on locked doors.
    Its so difficult when everyone is lookin at me from above like im a bug or something

    I just feel that i just cant fight it
    I just start to work on my education and already im beated and wounded
    and lost any hope i had, it will be so much easyer for me to just take this last step on the bridge. :cry:
  2. aki

    aki Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry they're being so mean to you :( I'm starting my education again as well, it's kind of hard and nervewracking at first but just keep going, it'll help you so much in the end and help you grow as a person. Just remember that they're totally pathetic and probably have their own issues to make fun over such a stupid thing as bad spelling. Good luck, I hope you can persevere and make a better life for yourself.
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    I'm sorry they are treating you so badly hun. Please don't let them win, keep fighting :hug: How are you today?
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