I can't. That's the problem. I just can't. It's all so annoying. My head is about to explode. I'm having aggressive moods, feel like throwing everything I have all around the house. I feel like smashing my head against the walls, floors, closets, everywhere. I feel like cutting my own head off and throwing it around the streets. I feel like punching everyone in their face. Eventhough nobody did me any wrong, except for myself. I wish I was dead. I want to die so fucking badly. I wish people would not ask what's wrong because I myself don't fucking really know. I get so aggressive. All the time I feel this aggression inside of me. I'm literally going insane. I'm really going mental. I can't deal with all this fucking shit anymore. It's just too much. I've reached the boiling point, where I can't deal with any of this shit anymore. I can't. It's fucking OVER for me. It's OVER. DONE. Can't deal with any of it anymore.
How can you say I'm not a bad friend, if you don't even know me?
I AM a bad friend. That's the way it is. And it's pathetic how I keep telling everyone I'm there for them, when I can't actually deal with anything. I can't even deal with my own life, let alone other peoples'. I've given up on myself.
Because having problems doesnt make you a bad friend.
I really wish you would talk to us, talk to me, regardless of who you are or if you know me. I have a few ideas of who this could be but then again i could be comepletely wrong. PM me hun or email me. I dont want you to give up. Please talk to me.
I know its hard. There are things to live for and you know that. They might seem distance right now because its blinded by the pain but they are there and allways will be. Trust me things will get better, i wouldn't lie to you.