the more i start to look at my half siblings the more lonely i get. i don't like other females because of the way i have been treated. this illness has taken its toll on me. i want my relatives to talk to me. i reached out and got bit by two of them though they are the ones who sought me out. i dont understand them. as for other females they accuse me of being gay . not all of them just like 50 percent . it doesnt matter if you wear jewelry or make up. it doesn't make you gay. just tired of being sick with mood swings and paranoia.