I'm stuck and I'm dead tired of it. I remember every year just why I f*ckin hate my birthdays lately. Every one marks another year that I've been an utter looser. All I can do is sit and think of everything that I've still not accomplished. :sad: I'm in a job that is dead end. One that I feel paranoid that everyone is against me (which is partly true as 3 co-workers spread rumors about me all the time) :sad: I barely make enough to just pay my bills and the looming debt I am in. So any dreams of me getting out of this state- possibly country- and the dreams that it will let me get a different life is always just out of reach. :sad: I'm stuck in a relationship that I don't know if I wanna stay part of. Yet since she was a friend before I can't find myself breaking it off because of the fact that I don't wanna loose a friend. :sad: I have no friends that live in town. All together I only have 3 friends- none of them in the same state. So I spend all of my time alone, sitting at home since I really hate going out doin stuff alone. It's like every year I just grit my teeth and try to carry on. But it's getting harder each year. As I grow older and realize that I'm never going to have anything change. I was born a looser and always will be a looser.