I have suffered from sever depression, for the last 3 years. I have withdrawn from all my friends, and suicide is constantly on my mind. Within the last year I became close friends with a person, and while my depression is still with me the hour or two I was able to spend with her out of a day has helped me a great deal. That couple of hours I am with her I am able to be at peace. After a fall out within the last couple of weeks, our friendship is no more. Now once again I am alone with no one. She is absolutely the only reason I have been able to go on, and now that is gone. For the first time ever I took a razor blade and starting cutting on my chest just to get away from the pain I feel. I just dont know what to do or how I can continue to go on in so much pain.