Life sucks... I was born into poverty but due to effort from myself and my family I have risen through the socio-economic ranks into what most people would consider a successful individual in my country, the problem is nothing seems to have changed. I am still alone and I have come no closer to reaching my goal. I am depressed, but I am not disruptive or noticeable, it would be hard for others to believe that I just want this life to end, it would be hard for most to understand that had I the necessary tools , I would have committed suicide a long time ago. Everyone around me is always having fun... and although I am looked up to and respected by my peers and colleagues, I am never treated with affection. I see other people post their stories and their problems could be solved by them having a backbone, rarely do they have a problem that could not be solved with them just getting over it. I consider myself a deeply flawed individual, but not due to my own failing, I have done absolutely everything right in my life and I have surpassed all odds, but again, I am nowhere near where I want to be. I just wish I had a gun... I need others. I cannot force others to need me. That's the dilemma. I have no friends, girlfriend, wife or children. I am not angry, nor do I blame anyone. I just wish I could quickly and efficiently terminate my own existence so this agony can stop.... no matter how much I excel, no matter how much I accomplish, I am still not close to my goal. There is nothing more infuriating than watching people consistently make the wrong decision and achieve in defeat what I cannot achieve in victory. I have nothing interesting to say, other than life sucks.