I have nothing to live for anymore. I have no friends that really care, that are there for me if I needed them only if I book weeks in advance. I have no family left that wants to spend time with me, they have all moved on with there lives, and none of them include me. I have no passion for my job, i hate it so much and I cant think of anything else to do so am stuck there. I have no interests anymore. Day after I day I just sit here and stare at the computer screen hoping someone somewhere will reach out. I dont even have good health anymore, I stopped eating well and now my health has fallen apart so that I feel very unwell every minute of every day. I cant think of any reason to keep living now, and I so very wish death would find me as I'm still so scared to go and find it even though I crave it so badly.