Hi All I was wondering if anyone can help me out as I am really struggling with an anxiety issue that is really impacting on my life. I am really struggling with going out to social places, meeting people and it's definitely impacting on mental health. I grew up with not many friends to really be with for a very long time, I went to different schools, different colleges throughout my childhood, teenage years and beyond. As a result, I never really had established friendships. I then had decades of people giving me fake numbers, not answering calls and not wanting to meet up with me up and I spent most of my life isolated with only penpals, books and the internet for company. I became quite depressed as a teenager, and in my twenties and it was when I particular event happened did my depression really come more apparent. At the moment, I am really struggling with trusting people as I know I have been messed around a lot for over 25 years. I have no desire to turn up groups, hobbies and interests simply because they I don't want to hurt anymore and emotionally I am exhausted with it all. I am starting to think that life isn't worthwhile and there's no point in me being awake anymore as nothing gives me pleasure or enjoyment. I have tried going places but my anxiety just gets too much for me and I end up just walking out or turning up half way through if I can be bothered. I end up thinking I am better off safe at home on my mac where I have ultimate comfort, control and security.