I knew it would be this way when I signed up for the semester. I knew I would struggle to go to class every day because of the depression and anxiety. But I promised my mom that I would...and I had to keep my promise. I'm already way behind on getting my degree and really need to move it along, but I just can't go any faster. I need a break after every semester. I can barely make it through the semesters without wanting to quit. I get good grades...A's and B's. And that's because I don't study. If I did study, I'd get straight A's, but I just can't seem to crack a book open and pay attention to it because of what's constantly going on in my head. I have a month left and then I'm done the semester. Then I have to take a break during the summer and go back during fall. But I used up all of the days that I could take off already for one reason or another. If I'm absent one more day, I get dropped and I fail. But I don't know if I can do it...I don't know if I can force myself to go during the entire month of April without taking any more days off, while feeling like throwing myself under a train every single day.