I have reached my Breaking Point

[Abby Rose]

I have reached my limit. I have tried to stay positive, to be upbeat but I see the world around me is starting to crumble. I have tried to be strong and get by but, the more I try the more I fail and I am getting tired of it. I have no social life and no friend and for a long time it hurt it still hurts, but I moved on and placed everything on my academics, but now that is coming apart and I see that I am left with nothing. I have nothing in to look forward to and nothing to hold on to, so after years of trying, I am ready to let go and stop waiting for something that is never going to come.

 

[Nessarose]

All I can say is to find someone to talk to. Writing here on SF makes me feel better, but actual in-real-life conversations give me a stronger feeling of unburdening myself. I talk to my mom and cousins mostly. I can identify...all my life up until college, I never dropped a class and I got basically all A's. I still get A's but I've dropped more classes than I count because everything feels so useless, people terrify me, and I have no willpower.

I don't have any friends, either--not any that I actually see any more. It's therapeutic to have friends and their support, though. Hypocritical as I am in saying this, try talking to people/ making friends. Believe me, I know how intimidating and daunting it seems, but it will really help.

Feel better, and take care.

 

[saeyoon Chung]

"Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat."

Mother Teresa said that.. and I couldn't agree more. A lot of people overlook this aspect of life.. There's a reason why Aristotle said "humans are social animals."

I feel very lonely today.. I'm just going to go to sleep and forget it all and start fresh tomorrow.

Being unwanted(or feelig this way) hurts and stings..

No social life..? I have none as well, it would be very hypocritical for me to try to sound like a know-it-all..

Nonetheless.. here's one for you.

Go to any stores in any mall and start asking questions, add things here and there and make a conversation out of it. Learn to make small talks.. and go from there.

Don't be lazy.. if a socially inept guy like "me" can do it, you certainly can.

I've often "depended on the kindness of strangers".... literally.. if you know what I mean..


Good luck, mate.. and hold onto your good grades, you'll need'em later on..


God.. I feel so lonely today.. so hungry yet I don't want to eat..

 

[Abby Rose]

Thank you both. I really needed to hear that and you have no idea how much your words and thoughts mean to me.