Hi, I'm a 25 year old female in the UK. I am a total recluse, with severe mental health problems and no way of getting and maintaining work. The only thing keeping me going at the moment is my Open Uni degree in Psychology, but there's no way that it will help me secure a better future for myself in the four or so years it's going to take until I graduate, studying via distance learning. I've got too many problems. I can objectively say that there is no way out of my situation, for many reasons. My severe social anxiety has ruined my life and has affected me massively for as long as I can remember. I can't make or keep friendships. I receive disability benefits, which fortunately enable me to exist (exist being the operative word) without trying to live with my parents or being on the streets, and I live alone. Up until recently I had been almost completely housebound. I made some small improvements recently, including getting voluntary work but I was completely and utterly unable to function there because of how bad my anxiety/panic attacks/depression is. I have no will to live and can't remember when I did. I have no desire to fight anymore. I decided on a plan to kill myself over a year ago and need to carry it out, but I just don't think I have it in me, and it's very tricky to obtain the means for what I want to do. I'm new so I'm very sorry if I'm breaking the forum rules in some way -- I did have a look so I think I'm ok. I'm not intending to make any kind of suicide threat, I just don't know what to do. I don't feel anymore, at all, and I literally see nobody all day, every day (because I cannot speak to people). I suppose I'm just putting myself out there, in a way. Would be nice to speak to someone.