I don't really understand the forum rules.
Well, I do understand some of them but abit is somewhat hard to fully grasp.
But anyway if I am violating any rules is not on purpose. Feel free to delete this post if I do.
Ok, so here goes.
I need to decide to live or to die. It's a hard decision.
I have what I need (i think/hope) right here in my lap. I tried before and always failed. I am scared of pain and I am scared of actually dying. But however I just want my own every day pain to end.
I tried seeking help and I tried to be happy and cope.
I just can't do that anymore I think.
I'm just exhausted and fed up.
I'm so sick of having anxiety and having my heart pound so hard. I get trouble breathing, it's like breathing through a small straw. I just wanna scream loud as hell and throw myself on floor and kick and pound my fists as hard as I can.
It's panic attacks and I can't prevent them. It just makes me want to die.
I have anti depressive meds. It doesnt really help.
My doctor told me to take more and wait til it gives effect, and I think that takes 1- 2 weeks.
Still I'm here right now, it's hard to breath right now.. I just want it to end..
I
Well, I do understand some of them but abit is somewhat hard to fully grasp.
But anyway if I am violating any rules is not on purpose. Feel free to delete this post if I do.
Ok, so here goes.
I need to decide to live or to die. It's a hard decision.
I have what I need (i think/hope) right here in my lap. I tried before and always failed. I am scared of pain and I am scared of actually dying. But however I just want my own every day pain to end.
I tried seeking help and I tried to be happy and cope.
I just can't do that anymore I think.
I'm just exhausted and fed up.
I'm so sick of having anxiety and having my heart pound so hard. I get trouble breathing, it's like breathing through a small straw. I just wanna scream loud as hell and throw myself on floor and kick and pound my fists as hard as I can.
It's panic attacks and I can't prevent them. It just makes me want to die.
I have anti depressive meds. It doesnt really help.
My doctor told me to take more and wait til it gives effect, and I think that takes 1- 2 weeks.
Still I'm here right now, it's hard to breath right now.. I just want it to end..
I