Well hello people. As you read in the title this soon to be suicide attempt is not based upon the felling that I want to die, it's more of a "I have to" feeling and also maybe a bit that I wish to die. What is my problem then you might ask. Well, it's really something that most people, the normal ones anyhow, don't see as a huge problem. I have problems with my teeth, holes and shit. And no matter how many times I've fixed them some stupid fucking depression hits me and during those times I don't give a rats ass about my fucking teeth. I have an intense fear of people finding this out. I suppose this could be an excuse of sorts but hell it gives me a reason to go away. I long for death, where you just cease to exist, to hell with this world, I'd never fit in. It aches so freaking much and at the moment I don't have any money to fix my teeth problem. I know it could look like I'm overreacting on this, heck I probably am but I want out of this life so badly.