I've been fighting my depression for almost 16 years now, and a few times I feel like I have almost reached the light at the end of the tunnel but suddenly been snatched back. This time I completely fell into darkness, which has only happened once before (suicide attempt) and it almost happened again last weekend, so I feel like I am entirely back at square one. I want to start from day one and really give it a good kicking, I want to do everything right this time, but I have no idea where to begin for some reason. I feel like I am seeing it through all new eyes even though it has been sixteen years. Maybe it's because this time I am going to win. Hopefully someone out there has got some positive advice for me! Day one starts today.