I have to take deep breaths as I write this...

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Dazzlezzz, Jan 21, 2008.

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  1. Dazzlezzz

    Dazzlezzz New Member

    My hands are trembling , It's hard to type

    COnfusion and pain has me held hostage

    it hurts so bad...

    the pain... it's horrible I hate it

    I hate it with everything inside me

    Constantly weighing me down


    Leaving me shivering

    leaving me lost

    But I alomost think that I couls deal with the pain

    If I knew WHY it hurts so bad.


    If I undertood why....

    I could deal with bad spells

    The days where the veil of my sanity
    and the grip of my hold of life

    has gome weak

    I coud deal with the bad spells

    where the burns and cuts on my body breeded and multiplies


    I could deal with the bad spells

    the days of no sleep

    of crying

    of hate and self loathing

    if there was a reason behind them.



    YOu see I shouls be a normal kid

    I have great parents

    a cool big sister

    and a sweet dog

    But...
    something inside me

    makes me unworthy

    I don't deaerve any of it

    they deserve better than me

    I am the lowest of the low

    the bottom of the heap

    and th heap is pushing down on me


    crushing me

    Ive been too strong for to long



    and I'm going to fall
     
  2. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Don't be so hard on yourself Dazzle. Nobody is perfect.
     
  3. odin93

    odin93 Guest

    I hope things get better for ya just loook on the bright side of things, look at you happy days and just strive for more of those, in time youll become really happy it just takes some time.
     
  4. Dazzlezzz

    Dazzlezzz New Member

    thank you

    i was feeling low
     
  5. SweetVitriol

    SweetVitriol Antiquitie's Friend

    Dazzle...Just breathe my friend...You know we (The forum) are always here if you need us..

    Be strong my friend
     
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