My hands are trembling , It's hard to type
COnfusion and pain has me held hostage
it hurts so bad...
the pain... it's horrible I hate it
I hate it with everything inside me
Constantly weighing me down
Leaving me shivering
leaving me lost
But I alomost think that I couls deal with the pain
If I knew WHY it hurts so bad.
If I undertood why....
I could deal with bad spells
The days where the veil of my sanity
and the grip of my hold of life
has gome weak
I coud deal with the bad spells
where the burns and cuts on my body breeded and multiplies
I could deal with the bad spells
the days of no sleep
of crying
of hate and self loathing
if there was a reason behind them.
YOu see I shouls be a normal kid
I have great parents
a cool big sister
and a sweet dog
But...
something inside me
makes me unworthy
I don't deaerve any of it
they deserve better than me
I am the lowest of the low
the bottom of the heap
and th heap is pushing down on me
crushing me
Ive been too strong for to long
and I'm going to fall
COnfusion and pain has me held hostage
it hurts so bad...
the pain... it's horrible I hate it
I hate it with everything inside me
Constantly weighing me down
Leaving me shivering
leaving me lost
But I alomost think that I couls deal with the pain
If I knew WHY it hurts so bad.
If I undertood why....
I could deal with bad spells
The days where the veil of my sanity
and the grip of my hold of life
has gome weak
I coud deal with the bad spells
where the burns and cuts on my body breeded and multiplies
I could deal with the bad spells
the days of no sleep
of crying
of hate and self loathing
if there was a reason behind them.
YOu see I shouls be a normal kid
I have great parents
a cool big sister
and a sweet dog
But...
something inside me
makes me unworthy
I don't deaerve any of it
they deserve better than me
I am the lowest of the low
the bottom of the heap
and th heap is pushing down on me
crushing me
Ive been too strong for to long
and I'm going to fall