I held ur hand thru all these years

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by among the stars, Jul 10, 2008.

  1. among the stars

    among the stars Well-Known Member

    My family is so different since mom died - I hate my grandparents and sister now - i have all my feelings and emotions relating to mom locked far away - i want to tell them how i feel but i cant, ive tried to tell them but they dont listen. They dismiss my feelings..... When mom was sick i did these things for her: "When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears, And I held your hand through all of these years , But you still have , All of me" - just so much to say but i dont know how or even if anyone would be willing to listen....

    I'm so tired of being here
    Suppressed by all my childish fears
    And if you have to leave
    I wish that you would just leave
    'Cause your presence still lingers here
    And it won't leave me alone

    These wounds won't seem to heal
    This pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase

    When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have
    All of me

    You used to captivate me
    By your resonating life
    Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
    Your face it haunts
    My once pleasant dreams
    Your voice it chased away
    All the sanity in me

    These wounds won't seem to heal
    This pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase

    When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have
    All of me


    I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
    But though you're still with me
    I've been alone all along

    When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have
    All of me
     
  2. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    I hope you know by now that I would always listen if you had something to say :hug:

    I know how strong the pain is, and how much you want to be with her, really I do...but think about your Mum, think about how much she protected you throughout your life, think about how much she loves you, she wouldn't want you following her :hug:
     
  3. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    I am sure your mom knew you loved her very much and she is now watching over you. Even if your family doesn't listen to what you have to say, don't repress your feelings. Put them down in a journal or in the form of poetry, or however you wish to express them. The loss of a parent is devastating, but so is the loss of a child. Your grandparents are also hurting as much as you are. Maybe they are unable to come to terms with their loss and by avoiding talking about it, they are attempting to deny it happened. You all need to pull together and support each other as much as possible. It won't be easy, but will help everyone if you can get it to happen. :hug: