All the sudden everything got so overwhelming again, and I honestly have no idea how to deal with this. Usually I have help, but tonight there's no one for me to text. And normally, cutting makes it go away for a little bit, but tonight it's still there. I'm scared that I'm going to have to go deeper and deeper to feel the same, and that will be the death of me. Right now I'm so terrified of tomorroW. Not only because of the unknown, but because Dan will be home tomorrow, and I don't know what he'll do to me. It's pathetic but horrible when you keep sending cries for help that no one actually answers. And besides, this whole rant sounds pretty pathetic anyway, so what's the point? Sure, somebody will probably answer tomorrow, but I have to ask myself.. What are the chances the I'll still be alive tomorrow? At the moment, it's not looking too good.