Hi. My name is Jeremiah, I'm 16 years old. I hope I'm doing this introduction thing right. :/ Without going into extensive detail, for as long as I can remember I've felt like I've never been worthy of other people's attention or concern, so I think posting here is kind of a big step for me. I've never been satisfied with any aspect of myself. I've always hated myself for being ugly and painfully shy, and never accomplishing anything. I've been cutting since age 10, when the worst of my problems started. At 14 I attempted suicide by overdose. I ended up in a rehab center for a while, which did help me somewhat. Since then I've started cutting less, as I have picked up drinking and abusing the Valium that's prescribed to me for anxiety and insomnia. For years I've had an eating disorder, but I've only recently I've started purging nearly everything I eat. I've lost a lot of weight that way, but I don't feel any better. I feel like I'm reverting back to my old ways and thinking about how much easier everyones' lives would be if I wasn't around. I've never really had a friend before, and I think that's what I need more that anything. I think I come across as being too desperate, annoying, or creepy because every person I allow myself to become close to ends up ignoring me. I get very worried and anxious if someone doesn't talk to me or reply an email I send to them. I don't know if this is normal. I think I'm a helpful person, and I try to be the best friend I can be, but I always end up alone and feeling rejected. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong, or why everyone seems to hate me once they get to know me. If anyone wants to contact me... msn: firstname.lastname@example.org aim: kid poops muffin email: email@example.com I've got Facebook, too. If you want to add me on there. Thank you!